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<\/a><\/p>\nIt\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s funny how one\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s attitude can totally fuck something up.\u00c2\u00a0 Case in point: I spent most of the day very excited about heading to yoga class tonight.\u00c2\u00a0 My bra was making me so angry all day I was so excited to go to class, put on a not-as-supporttive-as-it-could-be yoga top since I was out of clean sport bras, but I had planned to stick myself in the corner and hide my unsupported boobs away from people.\u00c2\u00a0 I get there and there were two students outside setting up their mats.\u00c2\u00a0 Fuck, I think to myself. Outside? I ask them about class and there were both delighted about being outside and hoped that class would be outside since \u00e2\u20ac\u0153it was the last couple of times.\u00e2\u20ac\u009d\u00c2\u00a0 Fuck, I think to myself again.\u00c2\u00a0 Just leave now, I think.\u00c2\u00a0 I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m not mentally prepared for an outside class, I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m not excited about being outside at the entrance to the gym with people coming and going.\u00c2\u00a0 I was looking forward to finding a corner in class and getting in some good me time without my damn bra on.<\/p>\n
I go inside and look in the gym.\u00c2\u00a0 There are people in there.\u00c2\u00a0 I put down my basket and grab my yoga gear to go change in the bathroom.\u00c2\u00a0 I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m terrified we are going to be outside around people with cold air which I would normally love, but cold unsupported boobs means massive peek-a-boobie nipples, so I leave my damn bra on.\u00c2\u00a0 I see another YTT student in the bathroom and we chat a bit.\u00c2\u00a0 I go outside and find a piece of shade to hide in and leave my sun glasses on the entire time.\u00c2\u00a0 I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m angry; very, very angry.\u00c2\u00a0 I consider leaving again.\u00c2\u00a0 Just power through it, I say to myself.\u00c2\u00a0 I had left my work shirt on, but it kept draping and hanging weird so I eventually took it off.\u00c2\u00a0 We had a gentle practice with some Chandra namaskars.\u00c2\u00a0 There were also arm balancing things which I avoid for a plethora of reasons and a few excuses.\u00c2\u00a0 I was too mad to even try to get past my excuses.<\/p>\n
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My class experience sucked due completely to my attitude. I got home and I was angry and my back hurt worse than it did when I got to class. I hate not being prepared about what is coming.\u00c2\u00a0 I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m not sure what lesson I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m learning here, but if anyone suggests that I should \u00e2\u20ac\u0153go with the flow\u00e2\u20ac\u009d I might just start yelling.<\/p>\n
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Asteya = Non-Stealing<\/strong>For the next three days we will focus on making conscious choices, taking only what we need & practicing generosity and gratitude.<\/p>\n Lets pay attention to the ways in which we covet or steal from others and also with-hold pleasures from ourselves. The more we want to be someone else, or shift our desires outward, then the less we are honoring our own divinity.<\/p>\n Stealing manifests in many more forms then simply taking something that does not belong to us. What ways do we take credit for things we didn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t do? When do we covet someone else\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s \u00e2\u20ac\u2122stuff\u00e2\u20ac\u2122 \u00e2\u20ac\u201d whether they be accolades, physical items or opportunities? If we haven\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t earned them, then they do not belong to us. These forms of stealing are rooted in a sense of desperation, emptiness and fear.<\/p>\n At the heart of Asteya is the practice of giving back, being grateful and acting with integrity and reciprocity. \u00c2\u00a0You have the ability to transform scarcity into abundance and fear into faith.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Yoga:\u00c2\u00a0Went to the UAF class Donna teaches. Pranayama: I did some to try to calm myself at class today and I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m planning on doing this tonight.\u00c2\u00a0 I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ve also taken melatonin so I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m not sure how long I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ll last though. Asteya: … Continue reading