Random Thoughts in My Head

Upset tummy, again. Last night I cooked something I would not normally eat when Michael is here taking of me.

Coincidence? I think not.

Damn you mozzarella sticks! Damn you! At least I can work from home while I deal with the tummy woes…..

I can mange to do all I do when I have someone there to take care of me. Doing all this on my own is hard 🙁

I’m feeling very sad today; my husband’s mom passed away this morning. Even though we have been married for almost ten years, I didn’t really know her that well, but I do know she was a pretty cool lady that had the most awesome relationship with her only son and he is going to miss her more than I can even imagine.

From Michael:

“She is gone now. I am contented that we were able to have a very nice 2+ hours long phone conversation last Monday and that I got here in time to kiss her goodbye. There was no suffering at the end. In lieu of comments of sympathy, please instead reach out to someone you love and let them know.”

First night dinner alone: instant mashed potatoes and half an acorn squash. Also, just started watching “The Amazing Race.” It’s pretty funny already!

First morning on my own: My family is on the other side of the U.S. right now but in two different states. They both wanted to talk to me this morning and yet both waited until 10am my time to call. My family knows me so very well. 🙂

First full day of cooking for myself: I’m thinking it might be a bad idea for me to try to prepare meals for myself. Today I’ve had instant oatmeal (it’s organic at least!), spaghetti (sauce from a jar), pierogies with fried onions and more instant mashed potatoes with a half a pound of baked-in-the-oven bacon (from Homegrown, so it’s from hormone-free and free-range piggies at least!)

My husband’s mom had a hemorrhagic stroke on Wednesday and now he is flying home to Virgina to be with her. That same morning my daughter told me she wanted to move to Alaska, for me, that is finally my baby coming home. Why is it when I get some good news, there is almost always bad news of what seems to be an equal or heavier weight?

Right before this I was floundering in my studio and thought I was going to have to close since I was not bringing in enough income to survive, so I went back to work as a programmer. Once the weight of financial stress seemed to be lessened, of course we get a massive fuel bill and car repairs need to be made.

These are just the last two things. There are so many other examples of the Universe appearing to balance itself. I just seem to keep getting stuck on the short end of the stick.