Random Thoughts in My Head

This week I rationalized that a pint of mint chocolate ice cream topped with strawberries was a complete meal: topped with fruit, mint for my vegetables and dairy for protein. Next up is chips and salsa: more vegetables in the corn tortillas chips plus lots of veggies in the salsa.

I think I’m doing just fine feeding myself while Michael is Outside at training.

Today was Mother’s Day. Michael is Outside at training and Amber is out with a friend. I had a Hoop Jam to go to a the studio, the last one scheduled since the weather is warming and had planned to go get a new critter after that. Sounded like a lovely day to myself and I was looking forward to it very much. However, my day would end up so much better than that!

For our Hoop Jam we ended up going outside and I learned about tossing.

Afterwards Varpu mentioned she was meeting up with friends to do some fire hooping and invited us along. I thought we were just going to watch but she let us play with her fire hoop. I forgot how much I LOVE the roaring sound fire makes.

I got to play with one of these hoops and a pair of fire poi.
So much fun!

Video!

Yesterday I was working on my monthly bills and realized I was more than a thousand dollars short and starting worrying about how I was going to cover it. Then I sit down to figure out the year-at-a-glance overview of upcoming medical expenses and seeing that what I was going to need to pay amounted to almost as much as I make in a year of take-home pay at my day job. All of a sudden that thousand-dollar monthly shortage was not such a big deal!

And then I got the really good news that I was going to be able to get insurance to cover much of those bills and that would decrease the medical bills by one-third of my first estimation. All of the thought of an additional six thousand dollars of expenses seemed trivial and then it occurred to me that just hours earlier a thousand-dollar deficit was causing me so much worry.

Perception is a funny thing indeed!

Morning of planned relaxation failed. Got to work and office was 84 degrees. Came home to work, but now I have a wicked headache. I’m going back to bed until this thing subsides.

So, my daughter didn’t get on the plane today, but she is scheduled to be on the same schedule for tomorrow. Apparently there was an issue with the carrier she brought to transport her little cat, so they booked her for the same-time flights tomorrow and she has to come back with a different carrier.

This time I’m not upset with her not getting on the plane. She handled this situation very well I think! And now I have one more day to clean up the spare room for her 🙂

Hooray! Micheal got a seat on his one connecting flight we weren’t sure he would make, so he should be home tonight. It’s been two long weeks without him at home. I’ll be so glad to have him home again.

Plus I’ll get to eat his yummy home cooking again soon.

This was me today. I’m not sure when — no, I take that back, I do know when I became a worrier — when I became a mom. The most terrifying thing that could ever happen to me was something happening to her. And 25 years later I still have that terrible worry. It only occurs when things don’t go as planned, like someone is supposed to be someplace and they aren’t, which makes me think something horrible must have happened to them to make them miss that appt. It frequently extends to the people around me that I feel responsible for in some way, such as my students.

It’s exhausting, really. I think I need to figure out how to stop worrying about the physical and mental well-being of everyone around me and think about myself first once in a while.